A List of Heartbreak

Found this list that I made after breaking up with a woman who I loved, and also a woman who I loved to share lists with...

I’m sad, because:

- This is happening, and I can’t stop thinking about it.
- My ego is hurt when I realize that I’m not all the things you want in your life, and that I’m not the person you thought I was, and not the person you are looking for right now, or perhaps ever.
- I worry that as time passes we will talk less, and eventually lose touch with one another, and a thought of you will regress to “I wonder how that person is doing?” and no more than that.
- For the first time in my life I was willing to pursue a relationship, look at myself and make changes in my life for love; be vulnerable, and then am turned away from the first door into that world.
- I know that sooner or later you will meet or recognize someone else who is also smart, funny, handsome, fun, and who appreciates you as much as I do.
- Love, for the time being, has become an annoying housemate.
- Cakes will never taste as good as they used to.
- I’m not as stoked about mixtapes lately.
- The door to my room is empty now. It made me more depressed when it was full of your kind words.


I’m sort-of glad, because:
- Even though I didn’t ever get there, I know I possess the potential to enter into an intimate, honest, and caring relationship, someday.
- As sad as I am that I will not be around to witness it, I know you will continue to be an amazing, creative, lovely, passionate, and dynamic individual.
- Really, though, I’m just sad.